It’s been a week and I am feeling TIRED already
Where is my energy? What happened to my body?
My legs aching my back was pain and my heavy body was like swaying not walking
BUT my mind was never stop thinking …everything must be done ,the impromptu speech
the teaching in class the hanging conclusion the kiv application the everything that must be taken of…
Seriously my job here is a scarry one
and the days was running very slow it seemed…
i just sitback for a while ignoring people peeping on me trying to talk to me for no reasons.
Here it goes…
dear me is this the life that you really want…I dunno
is this the job that really meaningful to you…I dont know
do you want to spend your days here just to finish your work…I dunno…do I have choice?
now I wasnt sure of what I did…it.s a torture and gruesome ..
…….gimme a break………to be continued..
Aha Today thaipussam day…
Honestly me and my al zauji decided to rest in our quiet sanctuary (w/out kids noise…actually feeling extremely bored..)
But just to avoid traffic jam on the road …you know thaipussam…so we glued to our ipad and at times in between meals
Watch tv..the rest we talk to our own mind…no interesting conversation..speechless…wait… Yeah only a few words like….
Ade nak kemana?!…mmm no
Lunch nnti buat lamb jerr..!…mmmm ok
See ipad charger?….mmm lam bilik
Old couple diary of the day…
but the real reasons to this is that ‘my mind need a rest,I wish i stop thinking about what happppened in the offfice,meetings,decision
Datelines,upcoming event,etc i just cant avoid.somebody give me advice/good practice to cut off this nuisance…is it possible to stop the active cell go slow n relax.
Never mind ,the countdown at least motivate me to go on ….yes a few more months…a few more IN SHA ALLAH.
to my kids out there…here some message for you
…whatever you do…you’re being watched and recorded….so we wanted to watch good movies later in our life hereafter
Stand!!!! Thank youuuuu teeeeacherrrrrr….
the time now is 12:11 the date is 1.1.2014 and today is wednesday
Looking back exactly where I was last year
in Methodist Girl school–really miss you guys
my beloved students
dear friends-bring me joy for the whole year…muchas gracias
and the awesome view from my room that i missed …sayonara
The time now is 11.09 pm 2013
A few more minutes to the new year.
I was so exhausted and weary today, meetings and meetings never end.
Feel like to end this 2013 an odd number year with a few words
Those days in you I experienced so many things in the name of making me matured
each day I gone through was so difficult
Seriously, I decided to leave my noble profession this early of 2013
to be exact on feb 2013
and I submitted the forms of my optional early retirement form last two weeks
the reasons to retire was unknown
I wasnt sure exactly why but I sanguine to say goodbye tension and welcome pension
I would like to view my splendid days before jumping into 2014
well it’s 11.23 now
I am getting older next year within 30 minutes from now..OMG
Lets have fun round the world within 30 minutes!!!!
to the port that I really loved
and bring me cheers in to my life
perak river – feeling bungy to the sky
feeling so cool in arabeluj granada spain
granada tour..huhu i want to be there again and again
my architectural feelings my alhambra
the best restaurant ever in cordova – feeling rich
OMG I JUST DONT WANT TO MISS COUNTDOWN 2014 11.58 PM
….HUHU …EMBARKING ….FASTEN YR SEAT BELT…..
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ME AND TO EVERYONE…..OH
NOW 12.01 SO WELcome ME MY 2014
i JUST LOvE EVEN NUMBER COMPARE TO ODD NUMBER…
SO hopefully 2014 will be a blessing year in whatevever I do and you readers do
I pray that 2014 will be super awesome fpr us…IN SHA ALLAH
My ending is usually lacking..
should improve more on this…
Today is 21st december 2013
Tomorrow wil be 22nd
The next day 23rd
The next folll
Owing day 24 th
THEN ONLY 25 th….
….ish ish still farrrrr away
Just be cool…try to chill in every minute of yr WORK
…..be patient……be a mental warrior
Give yr commitment ……dedication…show yr support
Apologise dont do no harm….give n take….strive for quality….target 100 %
Everything a week before dateline…..meeetings yes meeting …be punctual
…….bla bla bla…… Oooooh oh
……200 days more…..I mean 200 working days……..ok. Fine….ok it willl be fun n fine
….no worries mental warrior….yeah no not at all
Sabtu lepas ustaz roslan kat “nasi lemak kopi o” kata
Untuk rumahtangga bahagia(yg bermaksud sentiasa tenang bertolak ansur berkasih sayang ikut perintah Allah
X bermasam muka suami isteri klu ada yg x kena…..etc)
Maka hendaklah ….I mean hubby wifey affair hendaklah mempunyai skill berkomunikasi yg berkesan…..
Eeeee…….betul betul betul……tapi ego ego egoOoooooooOOOO
Ustaz kata sang suami atau isteri mestilah loose atau kurengkan atau kendurrrrr kan egooooo itu
……true true true
Apa pun I think I have improved on that I mean not the ego side but accepting the egoness with open mind
just laugh at it….
it works for me….but the other party!?……huhu erghhhh
No way….the ego stiill remain…uuuu bajet bagus ego u…..sampai bila?
Just keep on laughing at it…no matter what…live yr life to the fullest….rumah n tangga ku dalam hati ku
bahagia In Shaa Allah.
Syiah issue was all over …you tube…news….and even now they consider this topic be added in the school syllabus
As for me….this is along time story which I encountered 30 years ago during my studies in buffalo(…. Arrrghhh…nostalgia le Pulak/
…..my roommate a friend Malaysian a Malay she’s cute
We were young and we were totally far awayyyyyy from home
…..not many of us as foreign students only a few but managed to survive with life including
….finding halal food …torture our life with. Bookworming……apply reapply class ….sitting and resit exams…our life was under the blanket of frozen snow during winter surviving in a stress manner but woke up at last melting the snow and move on warm and awesome gracefully….phewwwww
At that moment SHe was getting closer to a friend studying in the same department
At that age I don’t even hear a word Syiah ever….
They got married I m not sure when……but I was invited …..and feel strange when a picture of ulama, was framed n put beside the bed…
Well……never mind I said…(I was so young who cares about all this what matters is studies and graduate- marriage?..”.?….is a no no topic until the degree is in my hand…that I promise my parents….especially my silent oath to my father…I would bring no shame to my kampong as failure who never graduated…I fulfilled and alhamdulillah this victory is yours….
Things getting strage again when I joined some kind of feast at mosque….the shahadah while praying was a little bit different
But again this was merely different view as long as we are Muslims …so if said
but I was taken aback when the most bizarre claim that I couldn’t accept when I was told sayyidatina Aishah was a prostitute
I ran to the library and read a lot of books about Syrah…..then only I knew this is a serious matter
Winter was over,,,,I passed my subjects with 3.5 if not mistaken
I transfer to another school to obtain my master degree and….recently
after 30 years I received a call and there my friend …
The issue lingers again in my mind…
……I would not say any further….about anything
…..I pray to Allah show us guidance the right path to me and my friend…
Any issue regarding faith…who play the vital role?
WHO TO BLAME.?…..lack of religious knowledge?
Government ?…. Putting us in a weird and isolated world and leave us there hoping we performed and educated when we returned home….without considering our social values growing up?
I would say……the most responsible person is the parents……
The parents anyway anyhow must instill the correct lessons in all areas for the survival of the children in this life stages……
Oh yes… Of course I as a mother ….I know it’s difficult and challenging but never let go and don’t give up…
akhir nya kita Akan kembali kepada Allah….cari ilmu amal dan jaga lah kehidupan setiap detik untuk menuju syurga…(peringatan ini untuk saya beribu ribu kali)
To my beloved kids out there….jaga lah akidah…..ingat sentiasa Allah….baca Quran tu setiap hari..
….aaaaaaa… Huhu…arrggghhhh …penat nye menulis ni
This December holidays I was at home all the time I mean no overseas trip
Due to something came up I kept my hope to travel one day …but not this 2013 hols
First I miss all the places I went recently
Jordan Syria Egypt Istanbul and of course Spain(2009-2012)
Thinking about the beautiful moments and quite adventures actually
I looked back into the album.
Mount sinai …the chance to go up climbing you in a cold weather
The secret of keeping the feeling of fear of heart problem might occurred during the trip
The vertigo…but we were very very careful paced on different kind of stones rocks and pebbles
Experience pray subuh in a small mosque on top of the mountain
The impact of this Trip Whenever I read about prophet Moses I could feel how near I was to this place and the history
Still keeping mount Sinai as my next holiday destination…is it possible?
Petra Jordan… The amazing place I have been especially when we reached the top
By taking the smart donkey the view the steep path was great and Superb and quite adventures and dangerous
yet the journey was a peaceful and enjoyable one.
Syria…. Just what happened to all the places I have visited….it’s a heart wrenching watching world news about the war in Syria
Though I was there for a few days I knew they are nice people out there
I was weak naming the places and history but I know the land full of learned people…oh Allah(sob)
Granada Spain… Alhambra…oh Alhambra…I describe this as road to Khalifa, the rich architectural past and the sequel of the past.
Istanbul turkey….and many more I feel like recall everything….
….I THANK ALLLAH FOR PERMITTING ME LANDING INTO THEse WORLD….which I never ever imagined to be given such a priceless opportunities to visit .now I had a better idea whenever I came across reading any materials any issuers related to these side of the world…
Well…now that my daugher decided to transfer from cairo univ to uitm (because of the riots in Egypt)uh…the chance to travel back there is very small….don’t you miss Cairo my dear?…..I do.its quite inexplicable…I ve been to nyork London….but the previous captivated my heart deeply
the other thing is my Alzauji’s passport still be blocked at the international airport until when??????please please…cukup cukup la tu
Tangkap ajelah Lah yg bersalah…janji di tepati tau tau…